Monday, January 13, 2014


This is what I look like after a long, hard Monday.  When your teachers used to tell you that they loved the weekends/vacations more than you, they really meant it.  Like, really.

On a related note, I really need to start brushing my hair sometime during the day.

Isn't it interesting that we, as a society, get really excited every December 31 to make goals and resolutions and (sometimes empty) promises, but we essentially get a new start every week when Monday rolls around and WE ABSOLUTELY HATE IT.  There is no excitement in the newness of a week or seven days of endless possibilities.  

Monday comes and we despise it.  
We want it to be Friday already.  We want to skip ahead and forget about potential and just be done with it.  But seriously, how depressing would it be if we did this every December.  If all we could talk about in January is December?  Ugh.  Just thinking about it makes me feel sad.  I wouldn't want to hang out with that guy.

(actually, knowing myself, i'd probably end up dating that guy. #issues)

I do this.  I totally fall into this trap.  I go to sleep Sunday night dreading the responsibility that comes the next morning.  Waking up at 6 am?  I'm not excited about that.  But I mean, I probably should be.  Because it is also a fresh start, with moments to be made and goals to be reached.  After all, we have to do those New Years resolutions sometime...probably on a day or two.

So really, while I'm not encouraging all night partying and kissing strangers at midnight every single night (but hey, do what you do), I don't think it'd be so bad to just love Mondays a little more.  They're aight.

Friday, January 10, 2014

Hair Quiz

You guys.  

I'm having major problems trying to decide what I should do with my hair.  For so long I simply did whatever I wanted with it (with no regard to what actually looked good) and now I feel like I'm ready to get something real done.

So, in the words of Christina Aguilera, I turn to you.

Please direct me.

Very Important Hair Decision

  1. What should I do with my hair?
  2. Nothing.  Keep it long and natural hair color
    Keep it long but go lighter
    Keep it long but go darker
    Chop it short but keep the natural color
    Chop it and go lighter
    Chop it and go darker

    Thursday, January 9, 2014

    This one is just mediocre

    A selfie is not going to happen tonight.  For several reasons, but mostly because I've already removed all makeup and unnecessary clothing from my body and therefore there is no angle or lip puckering that can save this face.  So, I give you this photo of me asleep on a train in Korea.  And another shot below with the fellow party animals from that night. This was an informative night in Korea, when some of the locals cleared up whether or not some stereotypes are true.  That's all I'll say about that.


    I haven't quite figured out what direction this post will take, but I wanted to get something down tonight.  I made a goal of sorts to write on this more, but I'm not disclosing the specific goal I made so you won't know if I make it or not.  All that accountability crap??  I'm not into it.  I don't want anyone to know how unsuccessful I am. Also, it's a big buzzkill when you start the year off sick.  Because then you justify not doing things more.  Gym?  Not gonna happen if I can't even breath (that ended a couple days ago but i'm still holding onto it).  Basically anything that requires extra effort/movement?  I'll talk myself out of it and take a nap instead.

    Which is why "take more naps" is on my 2014 list.  Boom. Win.

    Also, it is 9:25 pm and this is the latest I've been up all week.  Am I proud or ashamed?  TBD.

    Monday, January 6, 2014


    Sometimes you just gotta eat some pizza in bed.  And not even be mad about it.  And then think about how you're eating the same foods you ate in college...and then you realize you're still a child who only makes adult decisions sometimes.

    In conclusion, I'm a poser.  I'm posing to be an adult.

    But also, it is only 8 pm and I'm already ready for bed (no pants!).  I love that this is an option in my life anytime I want it to be.

    Here is my story for the day.  I went to Utah over the weekend because little bro had to make it to BYU (go cougs, rarr) and while I was out to dinner with a couple of my besties, spying on our other bestie who was on a date, we had a very interesting conversation with the manager at the restaurant.  We'll call this manager...Malcolm.  Mostly because he had pretty sweet glasses and reminded me of Malcolm Gladwell, but also because his name was Malcolm.  He told us.

    Malcolm was an interesting man.  But he did hook us up with free desert so weird is acceptable.

    Turns out this guy was raised in England and studied ballet (normal?).  When he wanted a change, however, he decided to move to Japan and lived there for ten years.  TEN YEARS!  That's a long time.  Even better than that, Malcolm was a TV personality in Japan.  (aka my dream job). Totally jealous of that.  Since being back, he has studied for and taken the LSAT and was going to start law school last fall, but instead took a job offer as a manager at a restaurant.  Interesting choice, good sir....

    Anyways, this whole interaction just reminded me that every human has a story.  Sometimes the stories are weird and terrifying and some are depressing and sad.  But mostly they're real and human and relateable in surprising ways.  And that is why I love humans the most; you can always find something to connect on.

    Friday, January 3, 2014

    Systems slash goals

    You read that last post and only wanted more, didn't you?

    I respect that.

    What? You also want a selfie with every post this year?  Ok, fine.  I'll oblige.  Good thing one of my goals for the new year is to shower more (also, surprisingly, not the first time i've had to make this goal).  Everyone wins!  Except me.  Showering takes so much effort.

    Anyways.  You're probably wondering what kinds of goals or systems (insert: i like the idea of making systems rather than goals; this article really resonated with me) I want to put in place for this upcoming year.  I mean, after 2013, what more could a girl want in her life?  

    A lot. 
     (I'm so selfish, aren't I?)

    Instead of wanting to only make big changes in my life, I want to really focus on making small, positive changes to my world.  Those are always the hardest, though, so I'll probably also make some ridiculous goals so I can win at something.

    I really want to work on being actively aware of those around me and to take action when necessary.  Too often I feel like I ignore these kinds of opportunities and make up excuses.  I'm really good at making up excuses or justifying things.  I'm going to try to make this happen less.  And love people more.

    Ugh.  Another thing I'm going to work on?  Being emotionally vulnerable.  I bet you're wondering how I'm going to do this, or what system I'm going to try to put in place to achieve this...I am wondering the same thing.  I've been feeling a lot of emotions recently and instead of ignoring them, I've been trying to address them.  I think that's a good start for now.  Also, this blog?  We gonna get real up in here.  This scares me.

    I also want to start making grocery lists when I go shopping.

    And have brunch more often.  Denver is all about brunch and I want in on that mid-morning party.

    Thursday, January 2, 2014


    What?  You want to read another New Years post that includes a summary of the year prior and hopes for the year ahead?

    I thought so.

    But first, let me drive to the nearest 7-11 for a beverage.  I've never wanted anything as bad as I want a beverage from 7-11 right now.  At 11 pm.  On a Wednesday.  (it's Wednesday, right?  I'm not so sure any more).  And I want this to be good.  BRB.

    Ok. I'm ready now.

    (me, James Dean, my drank, and some cleavage (yawelcome))
    (not pictured: Pringles)

    Generally speaking, this past year was the most normal, average year I've had in awhile.  For the first time in several years (like 10), I did not move to another state or country.  I stayed living in one place for an entire 365 days (well, i did move to a different part of the city, so technically i did move, but 15 miles is nothing). I feel like this is probably normal and expected for most people, but as I've learned, I am not most people.

    If I'm being honest, it was terrifying to me.  Staying in one place, where I have to face real life situations, fears, and insecurities, was the last thing I wanted to do. Which is why I made 2013 the year to do it.  I became so comfortable packing up my life and creating a new one that I think I was forgetting how to nurture myself, deep down.  Not to discount the growth I experienced in the last few years at all (because, let's be honest, the last few years were ballin'), but to allow myself the chance to really approach life in a way I hadn't.

    Those feelings of running away haven't been easy to suppress.  Every few months I get a little antsy and I think that it would be so much better to just get up and leave again. For the first time in my adult life I don't need to look for jobs and send out resumes, but I still find myself on job boards looking at what else is out there.  And you guys, I really actually love my job right now.  I've never really loved a job like I love mine.  It's so weird.  I'm so weird.  

    I'm fighting the urge to leave because I'm finally beginning to learn the power of consistency.  I'm learning that some things take time and that's ok.  I don't need to change everything in my life to find an answer because sometimes I just need to wait.

    The power of waiting. Some call that patience.  I call that very difficult.

    I went through 2013 without chopping off my hair or going to another country, and I survived the consistency.  I don't know if I can say that I loved it. But I did it.  And that is a big deal to me.

    Now for 2014: