Tuesday, January 12, 2016


Recently it has come to my attention that I am stricken with an 'almost-illness'.  Something that nobody really wants but isn't contagious.  Something that, when people find out about it, they worry about you.  They say comforting things to you; they tell you it's all going to work out--that everything will be ok.

A selection of other standard phrases:

"Timing is everything"

"You're stronger for this"
"Everything happens for a reason"

Just to let the world know-I hate all of these phrases.  I hate whenever anyone says them to me.  And I don't think I'm alone in this.  I actually think that everyone with my 'almost-illness' hates these phrases.

My diagnosis: Being Single.

Yes, I've had it on and off again for the entirety of my adult life.  Sometimes I'm lucky and go into a remission of sorts, but it has always come back.  I see people who make it past this into loving (and sometimes miserable) commitments.  I delight in their happiness.  I feel for their pains.  I see that all seasons of life come with beauty and struggle. 

But I don't see as this time as only a struggle.  It is, like every moment of progression, a time of opportunity and growth.  A time to strengthen and serve.  A time to go on sweet vacations and go to the movies alone.  

Every once in awhile I try to force my way out of this ailment.  I go to Rodizio Grill-Brazilian Steakhouse.  I leave my number for one of the meat guys named Ramon.  I wait three days until he finally texts me but then it's all in vain because he never responds a second time.  And I think: should I have left my number for other guy Marcelo instead?


blakecgriffin said...

You're stronger for this, Cindy.

Rachel said...

Ramon's timing is everything...

Love you, Cindy!

Katie Chandler said...

The world needs a Taboo buzzer that goes off anytime someone says "Everything happens for a reason."